Wednesday, November 25, 2009
This is how I feel.
How should I feel?
I'm amazing. I'm beautiful. I'm perfect.
I'm not convinced.
Is this how it feels?
This is what it's like to be "in love" ?
I don't want it.
Everything seems okay to you..
"I love you" solves everything.
Take it back, please.
I'd rather be alone than be empty.
Your words echo inside of me.
There's nothing there to stop them;
To soak them in; to feel them.
Your kisses are raw; emotionless.
I wanna fight with you.
I wanna scream at you.
I wanna feel SOMETHING,
Anything.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
has anyone seen my book?
then I realized I was sitting on it... ;)
<3 Happy St. Patricks day!
& Happy late St. Urho's day!:)
Off to read now that I found my book!
haha
Sunday, March 15, 2009
secret whispers.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Bittersweet Memories.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Honestly.
just a back-up plan
You don't care about my feelings...
someone else can.
I'm just someone you run to
when your lies go bad
Someone you can throw around-
Someone that will never get mad.
But one of these days,
I'll be long gone
Then maybe you'll realize
You should have cared all along.
And when that day comes
Don't bother to call
You've pushed me around too much,
I'll be better off after all..
Sunday, February 22, 2009
reminder...
Friday, February 20, 2009
PAIN
n.
1. An unpleasant sensation occurring in varying degrees of severity as a consequence of injury, disease, or emotional disorder.
I've never been one to deal with pain in a 'normal' way. I'm terrified of car accidents, ambulances, cuts, basically everything thats related to being in pain at all.
I'm extremely emotional. I'll cry in TV shows, Movies, heck, even music videos. So when I was eleven, I NEEDED to find some way to vent this pain and anger. Thats when I started writing. I thank God every day for giving me a healthy outlet for all my emotions, because without writing I don't know if I'd be alive. I actually recently started writing on my wall- mom was NOT too happy about that! But, I can't help it. Its an overwhelming feeling of relief after I write.
"we are writers. thats what we do. writing is our natural God-given ability to let anger out."-Kendyl
Today driving with my mom, we ran into an accident. Reminder- I live in a TINY town in Minnesota, so accidents are a big deal because chances are- you know the person. The accident was actually in front of the store where my brother was working at the time. He said two girls from my highschool ran in crying and screaming "CALL 911." -then, me being so emotional instantly started bawling. They called, and my uncle (who also works there, his father-in-law owns the store) ran out and started pulling people from the car and doing CPR. Now I dont know what else has happened to those people- but I'll update as soon as I do.
With that being said, I truly believe that everything can change in a moment. So you need to thank God for blessing you with all you have because you could blink, it could be gone.
xoxo